So I really don't like to complain, because that's not who I am. I like to be a positive person with a good outlook, but some things in general have been really crappy lately. I feel really lonely right now in Moose Jaw. I only have one friend who I hang out with, and I'm just really lonely. I wish more of my friends were here, that way I don't have to pester one person all the time. My job is fine I guess. I haven't started as Miss Fanny yet, and I'm actually kind of scared. I haven't acted in like year, and I kind of suck a lot. Working in the cash office is fine, I enjoy the people and I get to talk to the Passage to Fortune tour guides (hehehe ^_^) and that makes me happy. I guess I shouldn't be feeling lonely because I have people to talk to at work, but that's not the same as having friends. Oh well... life goes on.

Okay, so I'm pretty much super happy about my job right now. As most of you know, I got hired at the Tunnels of Moose Jaw, and I've been working there for about 3 weeks now. But when I applied, I applied for cashier, they interviewed me for tour guide, and then hired me for cashier. But the other day, Candis, the lady who hires for the tour guides, wanted to talk to me again, and she wants me to be a Miss Fanny on the Chicago connection tour, so in other words, part of my job will include me acting!! How great is that?! One of my long time passions is going to be part of my summer job... Ohhh life is great to me :) Now I'm going to go veg out on my couch, after my 5 hour shift with no break...

Hmm... so I started my new job at the tunnels as a cashier, and that's pretty fun. Well, it's not necessarily the "funnest" job ever, but it's money! And nothing can beat the sound of jingling change in my pocket. On Thursday I'm leaving with Peacock and Central high school to be a chaperone for the one acts, so that should be fun... :S ohh high school students :| Speaking of highschool students, I went to this farm party on saturday night, and it was possibly the stupidest thing I have ever been to. I felt so out of place because it was all highschool students, and their parties are just so boring! I guess I have been spoiled by going out to the bar and partying with the older crowd while I was in Lethbridge... but yeah, highschool parties just suck in comparison. But that's really all I have to write about. Till next time!

So the other day I went to church with my momma, because it's her thing, and so I like to support her, but it just made me so angry!
You see the problem is, church preaches against homosexuality and other things that the church deems "immoral" or just not "normal" within the psyche of the church. I really like the pastor of the church, he is a really nice man, but when he stands there saying that homosexuality is wrong and that it is a choice, it makes me soo angry!
Now, I'm not homosexual myself, but I know afew people who are, and they are amazingly nice people, and are just as normal as me or you. I refuse to let people tell me that homosexuality is a choice, because that is just a load of crap if you ask me.I'm soooo certain that people want to choose a lifestyle that earns them loads of prejudice and hatred... good lord! Religion can be soo intolerable!
And to speak against homosexual marriage is stupid as well, people want to get married no matter their sexual orientation. It is a symbol of commitment and love, not whether you are straight or not.
If you ask me, religion should be accepting of everyone and should be like a support group to make people feel better, not a group of people who exclude others because of the way they were born!
And unfortunately, my mother is part of this group who is prejudice towards homosexuals, and it's so aggrevating! I don't know how I will be able to live with her for the next 4 months with this sort of attitude in the house. I think it's important to accept everyone, and be nice to everyone, but because my mother is so blinded by christianity, she doesn't see this. PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE. Accept it.

So I've been home for like 3 days, and everything's been super great! I've had two job interviews at the Tunnels, and I applied for the chashier job, but they interviewed me for the tour guide postition, so that was a bit of a surprise, and today I had my audition for the job, and the lady said I had the character almost down pat, and lots of other compliments, so things are looking pretty good in that area, oh, and they also want to hire me as a cashier too if I get the job. Soo things are pretty good there.
Last night was probably the most awkward night of my life... I wanted to go bother Adam Demkey (the guy I went to grad with), so I went to his house, and he wasn't there, so his dad gave me his cell phone number, and I found out he was at Mike Peters house, so Kathryn and I drove up there and visited them while they were in the middle of playing dungeons and dragons, aaaand it was super super super awkward.... and then I gave Adam my phone number because we were friends in highschool, so whatevs, and then he phoned me today and wants to hang out tonight... ehhh yeah... so I'm going to hang out with him and be a nice friend, but it will be the most awkward thing ever... hopefully it will end shortly... but yeah... I love awkward situations haha, oohhh I'm stupid... but I'm going to go now and do nothing.

So it finally hit me... I just finished my first year of university. Crazy huh? I remember when I was in Kindergarten, and now, here I am, finishing my first year of university. It's amazing how things change so much in your life. I never expected to actually make it to university in my life. It always seemed to far away and like this time would never come. It's such a dramatic change from anything I have ever experienced in my life, and has really helped me appreciate many things in my life, my mom, friends, and those little things in life that you realize you have after being without them. I can say truthfully that after this year I have become a better person, and I'm really glad with where my life is going and who I am becomming. I have met some amazing people this year, and I have realized the characters of people who I don't want to be friends with. University really helps you define who you are, and I think that's a big part of it. Surely the education you gain is of major importance, but the self discovery you make is absolutely amazing, breathtaking really.
But I'm going to go now, I'm going home tomorrow, and I'm sooo excited! Oh, and super great news, I have a job interview on Monday at the Tunnels of Moose Jaw, so that is super exciting, because I need a job desperately during the summer. Money is a major nescesity (I can't spell that word...) Well, bye, and yeah... life is good :)

So I just finished studying for medieval history... It's 11 at night, and I've been studying since 2:30, with maybe an hour and a half break MAX in there... I kinda feel like I want to die, because I am totally not ready for this final... I would read over my notes again, but that takes two hours - not kidding... Why do I have to write so many freaking notes?! And it's not like it's all stupid crap that I write down either... well, my notes don't always make sense, but they aren't useless information. And to top it off, I got like 3 1/2 hours sleep last night, so I was super dead for my final this morning... this day has been complete and utter crap... I think I'm going to go to bed now, I really don't care about my final anymore... I read the textbook, I read my notes, I went to every single class, and I attempted to understand the material, and there is nothing more I can do... unless osmosis works and I sleep on my text book tonight, but I think that's highly unlikely. But happy news! Going home in like less than 48 hours! haha... ohhh I'm way to tired to be writing a blog right now... niiiight!